Saturday, March 19, 2011

Take a bite of my heart tonight

I want some more ;)


Bills, Bills, Bills

A few weeks ago I went on a date with this guy I met. He was a very nice guy and we seemed to have a lot in common. Our general interests were similar, including music, which is pretty much on the top of my list of things we should have in common. But he made quite a mistake…He didn’t pay for the things we did on that evening. Now before you all label me as a gold digger, let me give you a bit of back story on why I expected this guy to pay.

1) The day we met, he messed up my name. I told him my name a few times and he still insisted on calling me “Felicia.” If any of you know me well, you know I ABSOLUTELY hate the name Felicia. You could pretty much call me anything else and I wouldn’t be as upset, but he made the fatal mistake of calling me by the name I hate most.

2) He asked me to hang out. He then offered to pay for things…but didn’t.

3) He paid for…one drink. And made sure to mention he did.

I am not a gold digger. I am not high maintenance. I AM spoiled, but I do know when something is owed to me. I also know that when someone says they will do something, they SHOULD follow through with it.

Moral of the story: Ladies and gentlemen, if you offer to pay for something, DO IT! If you don’t, you risk the chance of being labeled as a cheapo…Just letting you know.


Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Neglectful :(

I would like to apologize to all of my readers. I have been VERY busy lately. I miss writing for you guys. I know most of you read my blog simply because I say the most off the wall things. I've had a lot of off the wall things to say...but work has been keeping me busy. I am now going to make more of an effort to work a little bit of writing into my busy schedule. I will probably update the blog every Monday and Wednesday...with the possibility of weekend updates. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy the next few blogs that are about to be posted. Some of them will be QUITE hilarious...And like always, I promise to speak the truth. Feelings may be hurt, but I really don't care. If you truly know me, you're very much aware of the fact that I am a very public person. I post everything on Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, and Blogspot. Therefore, do not get involved with me if you are not ready to read the things I'll post.

Cater 2 U

Sometimes you find that special man...and you have to be willing to cater to his every need ;)


Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Moving On...

Today I decided to go through my documents on my computer and flash drive. I wanted to delete some things I really won't use again, and organize the things I probably would need for later on in life. As I was going through these things I found a lot of good papers I've written over the years. I also found some that were very poorly written. I came across a folder that seemed to have some weird things in it. I thought there might have been some weird files that I had downloaded. As I opened up that folder, I was shocked to find the wedding invitations I had created for my ex fiancée and myself.

I'm sure you can just imagine the plethora of feelings that are surging through my mind and body right now...If not, let me help you. I honestly DON'T know how to feel or how I truly feel. I don't feel bad. I don't feel good. I don't feel sad. I don't feel happy. I'm just stuck not caring much.

To top things off, I decided to ignore the invites and continue going through my documents...that's when I came across the letter I had written him telling him things were over and I was moving out of town. I also remembered that I still have pictures of the rings he bought. I wonder what the shrink would say about that!?! I personally don't think it's that big of a deal. I have moved on with my life. I'm happy with how things are at the moment. It took me some time, but I realized that he was not the one for me. I cared about him very much, but he just wasn't the one.

Do I sometimes think "what if?" Of course I do. However, when I think about it, I know that I was right in making my decision and I'm sure that now that he has moved on, he would feel the same way. I wasn't ready for it anyway.

Did that experience change my feelings towards marriage? COMPLETELY!
I don't know if I truly want to get married anymore. I talk about when I get married, but the truth is, I'm terrified. I don't think I can go through it again. I simply want to live my life and avoid the extra conflict.